Why does life test me
Is it that i was borned a bastard
Is it cause my god hates me
Why do i cause suffering
Why do i casue fear
Everytime i let someone get close i end up cause pain for them
Why don't i just die
WHy don't i just pull the trigger
I know i deserve a cowardly death
But i can't pull the trigger
Is it cause i fear death
or is it that the demons within won't let me
Do they wish me to kill more
Do they wish me to add to people suffering
No i don't want to
I need to pull this trigger
I need to
I need to stop myself from cause pain
BANG

Why do I feel the way I feel
I took you for granted when you were here
But now that You are another man women
I feel as if my past year of life i have wasted
I should of cared for you kept you with me
But
I should of known I loved you when you were still here
But I thought of you as just another girl on my list
But since you have left there is a hole in my heart

I was once a child
I was held high in society
But with all this pressure on a child who could blame me
What I done was not of hatered but of pressure
I could not of let her tell what I did
DO YOU THINK I WANTED TO DO WHAT I DID I LOVED HER
But if i did not do it than the respect for my family name would lay in ruins
I know what i did was wrong
I shouldn't of even touch her first
But my the mind of a man sometimes can not be stoped
I am sorry
I know saying sorry means nothing
And I shall go to hell for this
But i swear i shall pay for everything
I shall take care of your family
By this i swear

finally got a actual myspace =D

http://www.myspace.com/deathflash12